I genuinely thought the act of making the promise would imbue me with the attributes necessary to uphold it. I made the promise because I wanted to keep it, and I believed that making it would render me capable of keeping it. I was, of course, wrong. One must first acquire the necessary abilities, and disposition, before offering his word. Yet another self-centred, self-serving fallacy I held to, believing I was serving another. I am a fool.