So … the problems I’m currently having stem from things I’ve been doing, and ways I’ve been treating people that started a few years ago. Personality changes. These people have told me about the timeline as they think it was. I agree with that assessment, and my introspection corroborates it.
Yeah I got a concussion right then. A nasty one. I am starting to realize I may still have symptoms of PCS. So I’m going to try to get a referral to a neurologist, and see if there’s anything to be done at this point about the brain injury… but … there is very probably irreparable damage done.
An errant hockey stick to the throat ruined my life. Ruined the life I’ve always wanted, that I had, and threw away. Plenty of things I did, chose, and knew were wrong contributed. I’m not trying to get out of my culpability but… fuck me. Ironically, if I was less skilled, it wouldn’t have happened.
A hockey stick. A fucking hockey stick.