So overall I’m doing … even with the stuff I keep specifically complaining about, this is the best winter I can remember. It’s half way through January, and I only have bad days when something actually causes them. Even then, it’s few and far between. I’m in a momentum slump since Thursday, but I’m kicking my ass out of it today. Going to do a bunch of the stuff on my list.
Then there’s the big long conflict dealie I keep writing about. It’s going really slowly. I mean, that’s an improvement, because it had actually been getting steadily worse for over two months. So I can see it’s moving in the right direction now. Still, it’s just been going on so long, and it’s been such a strain, that I a feel like I’ll collapse under it. (Collapsing would look like just giving up, and letting it go entirely, not hurting myself, or spending a month in bed – see best winter ever!) Eventually I will collapse, unless the process accelerates. At the current rate, I just don’t have the stamina to get to the end. I want to. I want to make it to the end, and resolve the situation. It’s the most important thing in my life right now. I just know it has to move faster.
The ship is held together with scotch tape right now, and the tape will only last so long. We’re not welding fast enough. I canno’ hold ‘er tagether like this for very much longer, cap’n!